How passionate are you ?

I started reading a book called fight for your dream. In the book you are encouraged to discover yourself and your passion. Now while this activity isn’t new to me, I decided to try and actually answer each question.

With each question and the introspection required to answer it, I find myself consumed with emotion. Emotions because I want it so bad because I think about not having gotten there yet and not seeing a clear path to get there it yet I’m absolutely convinced that I must get it, that my spirit will never find true peace without it.

The first time I felt such passion for a dream, it scared me. It scared me because I know that there is no way that I could just get it…. Life doesn’t work like that, life tests you…. And trying to achieve a dream is one of its biggest tests. Things happen that threaten to destroy your spirit, it threatens to destroy your beliefs and your resolve. It is how we face these threats that ultimately decides if we are worthy of not just achieving our dreams but holding on to it.

Now there are many things that can keep us back from what we desire, maybe it wasn’t meant for us, maybe we didn’t want it as badly as we thought, maybe we meet an untimely death, maybe our desires change with time and experiences. But how will we feel if what we want is denied to us because of us?

This is why I ask HOW PASSIONATE ARE YOU? Are you willing to face the challenges, fight the odds, dedicate the time effort and energy it requires? Are you willing to face your family and friends trying to encourage you to do something more ‘practical’?

Most importantly, are you willing to fight yourself for your dreams? Face your inner demons? Stifle your doubts? Wrestle with your fears? Go to war with your weaknesses?

Are you willing to take the time to nourish your strengths or grow your mind? Are you willing to set aside your ego and arrogance to empty yourself of what you think you know to become what you need to become?

This book I mentioned earlier highlighted my greatest fear. It said you need to find out what your next dream will be otherwise you are sentencing yourself to a life of mediocrity.

Living a mediocre life terrifies me because MEDIOCRITY IS THE DEATH OF GREATNESS!

So how passionate are you? Are you going to live each day filled with passion and pursuing your dreams or are you going to be just another walking dead?

You know my words…
Chin up
Chest out
BE AWESOME!

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Love
~~~Ms Abby Kay ~~~

Allow me to Re-introduce Myself

So you think you know me? Think I’m the same girl you knew last year?

Please….. I’m not even the same girl I was yesterday.

Every day I evolve. Every single day.

And no, I am not a schizophrenic. I’ve known someone with schizophrenia, it’s no joke.

I evolve every day because I learn every day. I learn more about myself, about life, about my profession. More about society and how I prefer to react to situations. I learn more about my personal style or how to better manage my hair.

It’s because I learn every day and because I want to learn every day, that I’m here, blogging ; connecting to you, whomever you may be.

I want to learn from you and share with you. But most importantly, I want to learn from myself; see the evolution of my mind and outlooks and perspectives.

I said in my first introduction that I may need you, but in the few months that I’ve been blogging, I realised….. I actually do NEED you!!

I want to improve my writing and become this truly awesome person that I created Ms Abby Kay to be.

So you know what?
No more being overly proper, I’m just going to say what I feel and think, no self imposed censor; and I’m going to ask for your help in understanding different perspectives. In determining different ways to approach different situations.

I will share with you my joys and my pains, and let you know that whatever it is that you may be going through, you are not alone, you got me. You may not like what I have to say but you got me. And I hope I can count on you too.

So, join me on my journey. Let’s be Awesome together….. Uncensored and uncut!

Much Love!
Ms Abby Kay

Again

Left again
Stranded again
Abandoned again
Unloved again
Used again
Feeling stupid again
Tired of wasting time and money again
Only to be left alone again
Don’t want to be angry again
Or bitter again
Don’t want a void where emotions were again
Don’t want to feel empty again

So now, strong in my weakness, I stand again

Shoulders back,
Chin up,
Chest out,
AWESOME AGAIN

Breathe, Stretch, Shake …..LET IT GO!!

At work on a saturday……………..inhale, exhale

Feeling lonely / horny and ex having a time……….pump up song tunes

One week into the month and money done………yoga time

Sprained ankle, have to hop to get into the car to get home………..hop to a beat

Kids being pests………..ship them off to grandma’s

The sun is still shining, and you are still living so there is still time for things to go right for you.

Chin up, Chest out………Be Awesome

5 Silly Things That Really Should Not Bring Me As Much Joy As It Does:

We all have those little moments where we feel joy, or should I say pride, in the most silly of things. Things you know it’s actually kind of wrong to feel good about. Things that may make you realise just why PRIDE is one of the deadly sins. But in my attempt to keep it 100, I’m going to delve a little into the deep dark world that is my mind, and I’m going to share a few of my own secret conceited bitch moments.

And 5 of the silliest things I take pride in are:

  • Unlimited Data Baby!!!! – I actually just love when people ask if I have wi-fi where I am and I can say “No I have: Unlimited Data Baby (*in Austin Powers voice*)”. I don’t even use my internet that often, I don’t carry on constant chats on whatsapp or tweet or am on instagram…..nope I just like being able to search for information when I need it…and the look of envy from non-data having peeps.
  • Having an Engineering Degree – Ok the reality is that I’m not making the kind of money you expect Engineers to make (hey I’m now starting out) and my general finances not great yet either, my bank account not fat (yet). I have no husband/boyfriend and none in sight for the near future, and I have no children, I don’t own my own home or my own car, I don’t have land or a great wardrobe. In fact, I pretty much live like I did at university. So when I’m in those awkward situations where everyone seems to have a great perfect life and doing so much better than I am, I whip out the only real arsenal I have: My engineering degree. Mind you this only works well with non-engineers. In fact with none professionals – not doctors, lawyers and the like. So you’re getting married next month and have 3 cars and 2 kids and you just signed the lease on a house. That’s nice. Oh what am I doing? I’m an Engineer! —HA! Take that!…lmao. It’s conceited I know, and while I don’t think having an engineering degree makes me better than anyone, the fact that they think it makes me better than them is a definite plus for me.
  • Spitting Bullshit (and having people believe it) – Now I know you all agree with me on this one. When you know you spitting the world of BS but you’re doing it so well you not only convince the people you’re telling it to but almost even convince yourself. Now that is something to smile about. Conversely I also enjoy listening to other people spitting bullshit and having them think I buy that shit.
  • Booty Jumping – so I won’t go to the club and split and bounce and jiggle each side of my bumcee but it really causes me to smirk just knowing that hey, I can do that too….probably even better. HA! (ok so maybe not that great but I’m good enough for me)  But I’m sure most women out there love jumping their booties in private 🙂
  • Making bad things sound like a God-sendThis almost goes back to Spitting Bullshit. But it’s a finer art…..Friend feeling down about having a shitty job….you convince her that the job is just what she needs in her life to get to where she needs to be in life. Technically it might be true, hey as long as it makes her feel better, you’re good! I personally love to see the brighter side to bad situations and I feel really good when I can make other people do the same (even when I don’t believe it myself).

So there it is 5 really silly things I find joy in. What’s some of yours?